Past, Present, Future

Looking back at was happened to my life up till this point is somewhat of a blur. Not that I have a bad memory or some sort of problem it is just that I can never fully remember everything but only certain aspects of my past. But those aspects are really well implanted in my memory that I can remember everything in great detail. So as I close my eyes and look at my past I can tell you that I have always been a good kid, never a real troublemaker or anything of that sort. I always did all my schoolwork and always had pretty great grades also. My family in the past has always supported me in anyway that they have ever been able to. Something that I think I should talk about because I believe people should be more aware of how this can be a problem to younger children is bullying. I was one of those kids that was bullied, not in the physical kind of way but more of verbally than nothing. It has been a big aspect of my past that I have come to overcome, but now I believe that it is a problem some kids might be going through themselves at the moment and should be addressed by people who could help.

            Living in the present rather than the yesterday is something I do quite a lot now.  I try to enjoy the moment that is the present because well there is nothing quite like it.  Many times I do something that I would call a self evaluation in which I ask myself what am I doing right now, and depending on those answer fix things I believe should be changed.  For me my now is always changing because once I believe things are just perfect or a norm has kicked in, life attacks and changes it all. Sometimes it’s for the bad or sometimes it’s for the bad. But all that I know is that for now I am in college and I am quite grateful that I have the necessary requirements to succeed right now and enjoy doing it. Because I always know and remind myself that tomorrow might be a whole different day.

           

            One of the questions I ask myself quite often is what do I see myself in the future? I can never quite see myself clearly in anything because I still do not know what I want for sure. I am shaping out the type of career I want at the moment but do not have a definitive answer that I could give to someone if they asked me about my future. But the things I do know for sure is that I do see myself moving on to either SDSU or UCSB. My future as I can see right now is continuing my studies there and then living there for some time while I work on whatever career I do end up chasing. My future is one that is still in its building stages, but one of the goals I hope to achieve is for me to be able to close my eyes and think about where I am at that moment and be happy to know that that is where I want to be