on Tuesday, August 28, 2012

            “Should I go to the grocery and buy some chicken to cook later today?” “I don’t think I have time to go buy and then cook, I think I will just stop by McDonalds and get something through the drive thru” this is how my current love affair with fast food is. It is some sort of bad romance because I really dislike going to go get something at Jack in the Box or some other fast food chain because I know that it is not the healthiest thing I could be eating. But their is many reasons I that persuade me to go somewhere to buy food instead of buying the ingredients myself and cooking it at home.

            In my family’s life and in my past fast food was not a very common thing because food was usually cooked at home. I would usually come home from school and my family would cook up a good dinner in about an hour or so.  Although I really did not have a choice in the matter since I was a kid. But when we did go out to eat fast food it would only be on some random day just because we were either lazy to cook or just because my parents had decided upon that.  We would usually go to McDonalds or sometimes Jack in the Box.  I was never a big hamburger person and still I am not so I would usually get something with chicken or some chicken strips. At the time it was never a real big deal because well I was a kid and food was food. But it also was not just any food it was pretty delicious food that the more one would have the one would more want.

            Life in the fast food section of my life was almost the same up until quite recently. I would say it was about two years ago that a transition began to occur. I started driving, this meant that I was out of my house much more often. Eating at home started becoming less and less frequent, and same thing with my sister. I began eating out more and more.  Fast forward up to now and I sort of have become relied onto fast food. Not completely but it has become something unique in my life.  I try quite hard not to go to a fast food place but with the time and sometimes money being a issue I really do not have a big choice other than to go eat something from a fast food establishment. Currently I might eat it 3 to 4 times a week.  Comparing that to the past, I go much more frequently than I used to.  But I do know where I stand one eating fast food, and that is to slowly start decreasing the amount I eat. For one, I know that it is not very good to be eating that much fast food, but I do know that there is something I can do about it. And when an opportunity is open for I know I want, in this case it being for me to eat less fast food. I have taken it and am attempting to try my current fast food trend.

Looking back at was happened to my life up till this point is somewhat of a blur. Not that I have a bad memory or some sort of problem it is just that I can never fully remember everything but only certain aspects of my past. But those aspects are really well implanted in my memory that I can remember everything in great detail. So as I close my eyes and look at my past I can tell you that I have always been a good kid, never a real troublemaker or anything of that sort. I always did all my schoolwork and always had pretty great grades also. My family in the past has always supported me in anyway that they have ever been able to. Something that I think I should talk about because I believe people should be more aware of how this can be a problem to younger children is bullying. I was one of those kids that was bullied, not in the physical kind of way but more of verbally than nothing. It has been a big aspect of my past that I have come to overcome, but now I believe that it is a problem some kids might be going through themselves at the moment and should be addressed by people who could help.
            Living in the present rather than the yesterday is something I do quite a lot now.  I try to enjoy the moment that is the present because well there is nothing quite like it.  Many times I do something that I would call a self evaluation in which I ask myself what am I doing right now, and depending on those answer fix things I believe should be changed.  For me my now is always changing because once I believe things are just perfect or a norm has kicked in, life attacks and changes it all. Sometimes it’s for the bad or sometimes it’s for the bad. But all that I know is that for now I am in college and I am quite grateful that I have the necessary requirements to succeed right now and enjoy doing it. Because I always know and remind myself that tomorrow might be a whole different day.
           
            One of the questions I ask myself quite often is what do I see myself in the future? I can never quite see myself clearly in anything because I still do not know what I want for sure. I am shaping out the type of career I want at the moment but do not have a definitive answer that I could give to someone if they asked me about my future. But the things I do know for sure is that I do see myself moving on to either SDSU or UCSB. My future as I can see right now is continuing my studies there and then living there for some time while I work on whatever career I do end up chasing. My future is one that is still in its building stages, but one of the goals I hope to achieve is for me to be able to close my eyes and think about where I am at that moment and be happy to know that that is where I want to be